I have few sleepless nights recently, very much due to this subject.
I keep asking myself: had I made a correct decision to marry this man?
Whenever I think of our situation now, I wonder what would happen if I have not married him. Would things change? Would I be happier? I can’t stop my tears from coming down every time I ask myself what if…
But when I look at my 2 cute and beautiful daughters, I feel even more heartrending. I don’t want them to be the victims. They are so innocent.
It is this thought that awaken me last night when I stared at my gals who have long fallen asleep. They are so sweet and so innocent and happy with daddy and mommy around. I don’t want to hurt them, I don’t want them to suffer. I told myself I have to stop thinking of this anymore.
I got to be discipline, stop thinking whether it is right or wrong to marry him. I can’t let my man know about this either. You guys might be asking what’s the big deal behind the scene.. what trigger me to have this thought…
